Emails
(From My Tin-Yeu WordPress Blog)
As my email
reaches its maximum capacity, I face with either deletion or pay more for the
storage. As I looked at thousands and thousands of emails sine the last 15
years, a saying in Matthew 6:29-21 comes to my mind, and I decided to delete
instead of buying more storages.
After
deletions from my electronic devices, I came to my physical boxes and files. I
ran into my dad’s hand written documents. And suddenly tears overflew me: my
dad has been bed ridden and he entered his silent life since the last 20
months: I face with the reality that dad will not ever email me or write
anything again during his lifetime. A sense of loss took a hold of me, and
sadness and sorrow overwhelming my heart. I just sat there and cried and
sobbed. Once again, a small voice kept comforting me: be still. Be still (Psalm
46:10). And the pain remained and yet peace started to come in from my deep
soul.
Loss &
suffering are real, and yet God’s comfort and God’s peace are also real. And
then I figure out that deletion or not, the love from my dad, and my love for
him will be intact regardless.
After my
emails’ deletion; after my shredding of boxes and boxes of paper work, I
experienced Romans 8:38-39 with a new understanding. Be still, be still and be
at rest once more my soul, because the Lord have been good to us and
forevermore, the One who claim I AM.
I am taking a walk, with my beating heart that
was given from ma & pa, and a life from God. In that deep pain, in that
deep silence from my heart, I know that I will be Still in Christ. I have to. I need to. Amen.
